me: a NURSE :)

im a nurse by profession,i graduated march of 2008 at USC-TC .. i finished school without any medals, or anything to boast.. but what i know is that, i made (even a litte ) difference to some of my patients. i know, some of my patients, not all, have made an impact on how i look and take life now..

for a couple of days, i've been getting weird flashbacks of my nursing days.. weird, coz i've been visited by thoughts of the patients who have somehow made an impact. those patients who, i might forget the names, but i'm never gonna forget their stories and faces..

at first, i thought that these flashbacks surfaced simply because i've been talking to my friends who pursued nursing as their career.. i've been hearing a lot about their jobs, how low their salaries are, but how they somehow still stick with it.. i've always thought that my friends who work for free, calling themselves volunteer nurses, with the "hope" of getting absorbed in the hospital, were somehow crazy.. who would want to work for free and without the assurance of getting THE JOB even if they wait for 2years? 

but then again, as they whine about the con's of being a nurse, i quitely sit in the corner, remembering the pro's of being one..

• the weird, tingly, ants-in-my-pants feeling when u see the genuine thankful smile and the welcoming face of ur 1week patient as u enter their room after their successful surgery..
• hearing "how are u?" as real as the cap on ur head.. 
• getting the most genuine "thank you" as ur patient gets discharged from the hospital.. all well, and as strong as a cow..

yes, some situations may be a little stressful..

• getting all beaten-up by the force of ur patients S.O.'s (significant others) to help their father/mother, brother/sister, bf/gf, grandma/grandpa, get a second chance at life.. holding u as if u're a lifeline, sometimes thinking u're the doctor..
• "talking" to patients who don't wanna take their meds coz they just wanna give up.. the talks could go for as long as a minute to an hour, with me saying "gusto ka mamatay? unya imong asawa, anak?" as an ending.. great thing filipinos practice close family ties, or else, i would've used a diff approach..
• soon-to-be-moms shouts coz of a gruesome 24hr labor.. followed by a tiny cry of a newborn as i shout "baby out! 8:32am." 

• and of course, there are those kids with eyes as large as a full moon, carefully eyeing the injection as  i prepare for an i.v. line.. but, u never hear them cry as the doctor ties a rubber on their arm, looking for an obvious vein, with me humming, "strong jud kaau ni's baby ryan oh.."    

no, i didn't wanna be a nurse.. but somehow, i learned to like the profession.. no, not like, i might actually have loved it.. if i don't have to work as a volunteer, and the pay would've been a lot bigger, then, i might actually be a nurse.. sadly though, i have bills to pay, i have a future to prepare and places to travel that being a nurse just won't suffice.. 

right now, as i write this blog, i'm missing my white uniform, my cap, the rush of code blue, the doctors shout of "i have bleeders everywhere, i need clamps!".. yes, being a nurse is stressful, but for me, its the most satisfying job ever.. correction people, its not a job, its a vocation.. :)

"you can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine !" -- The Remedy

=== yhielle ===

from the bottom of a broken heart :)

first of all, im not heart broken -- my heart is very whole, and is in a very good condition (buyag!) -- i just decided to write about heartaches and break up's simply because im surrounded by couples breaking up, girlfriends crying, boyfriends drinking 'till their stomachs turn -- there's too much "sad drama" surrounding me right now that i just don't want to lose the "happy drama" i'm experiencing now --

i've been hurt before of course -- i've cried, i've cursed and i've wished people unwell, but i never got to the point of breaking down and go as low as self-pity -- i walk as if im one of the prettiest girls in the world but, what i know is that i'm smart and wise :p -- confidence, i know, that has always been my weapon :p

LOVERS come and go, and it's actually up to them if they wanna stay or not -- we cant do anything about it, but be the best that we can possibly be -- 

here's what i do after a breakup :

1) DIVERSION 

-- i party, i surround myself with friends, i clean the house, i write, i learn something new -- this takes ur mind off the pain -- i dont believe in the saying "time heals all wounds" -- you learn how live without it -- 

2) RIBBON CUTTING

-- delete them as a friend in FB, unfollow in twitter or even block them from viewing all your profiles -- it may sound bitter the first time, but after a long time, you'll just realize that you just dint want them in ur life anymore --

3) STOP CRYING ! 

-- cry like a baby ONCE, and only ONCE ! pour it out, doesnt matter if it sounds like a tsunami is coming, but pour your pains out -- ONLY ONCE -- coz there will come a point in your life that you will look back on that certain day and realize how stupid u are for crying that much -- crying never helps, it only worsens how u feel about urself, plus you'd look awful -- 

4) DON'T SEEK FOR REVENGE, JUST STAY PRETTY 

-- im a libra, so im too lazy for any confrontations, so i just sit , get my make up on and look damn GOOD :) looking beautiful and radiant is, and always will be the greatest revenge -- period.

and if all things fail just smile :)as they say in the vernacular: "MADA RANA'G SMILE ! " 

"you can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine !" -- The Remedy

=== yhielle ===

6 names :)

Everyone has 6 names:

•Your Real Name:
MARIELLE ISABELLE MIOLE

... •Your Detective Name (favorite color & favorite animal):
YELLOW DOLPHIN

•Your Soap Opera Name (middle name & street you live on):
HISOLER BACAYAN

•Your Star Wars Name (first 3 letters of last name, first 2 letters of middle name, first 2 letters of first name, last three letters of last name):
MIOHIMAOLE

•Your Superhero Name (2nd favorite color & favorite drink):
PURPLE ORANGE-MANGO

•Your Goth Name (black & the name of one of your pets):
BLACK SAICY

Trails to Antarctica :)

just like everyone who lives in a tropical country and who hasn't experienced snow or a weather below 20 degrees celsius, snow is, and will always be, a fascination to us,.


i may, or may not, experience real snow, but hey, its not all-about being real.. its all about getting the feel of it, and believing you're actually THERE.. 


oh well, the kid-in-me, wiggled and yes, it mingled ! 


FROSTY THE SNOWMAN -- my first ever SNOWMAN :D

>> that's my very first pic when i entered the room.. when i saw Mr.Snowman, i immediately took a pose beside him.. i might actually have a thing for snowman's since my fave Christmas song is about a snowman too -- Frosty the Snowman! 


Penguin Experience 

>>> nope ! they're not real, but i got to meet real penguins just 10mins before this pic.. im not quite sure how i' should describe my feelings towardS them.. i don't think they're cute, but i don't think they're disgusting either.. "fishy" might actually be the word im looking for .. hahahah


My Orange Christmas House 

>>> this is where, we, in  Antarctica  live.. and this is how our house in Antarctica should look like --- surrounded by ORANGE BRICKS.. yes, it has to be orange.. other colors are banned ! hahahahahh


LAMP POSTS in Antarctica 

>>> even lamp posts pinagdiskitahan ! hahahahaha #ignoymuch "? hahahhah


BENCH in Antarctica 

>>> oh yes, its just normal for people in Antarctica to sit in a bench covered with ice, wearing orange and blue coats but with our legs exposed.. its actually an FASHION thingy there..  and no, we're not cold.. nah-uh.. we're SUPER COLD!  hahahhahaha


My Christmas Hero !! 

>>> Santa Claus !! he told me if i'd be a good girl this Christmas, i'd get a rose pink MAGS bag from Banjan (found in SM), a black CMG stilletoes from ate (also found in SM), a bag full of lays, ruffles and cheetos from Mama (found in any grocery store ) , and from Papa ? hugs and kisses nalang daw.. hahahahah




PICTURE VOMIT !! 

>>> oh well, i think being crazy just runs in the blood.. blame it on DNA .. hahahah.. chenkz Manila Ocean PArk for bringing snow, Frosty the Snowman, santa -- the whole Antarctica to the Phils.. people should, most often, bring out the kid in them.. no, its not about being stupid, just about being silly and crazy.. :D




P.S.
-- i have a secret, but promise not to tell ...
I.BELIEVE.IN.SANTA.CLAUS ♥♥♥




"you can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine !" -- The Remedy


=== yhielle ===

BE -- liever, the 365 days FEVER

BIEBER FEVER ? Hell NO ! Don't get wrong Bieber fans, i have nothing against Justin.. You can all love and praise him for the rest of your lives, and i'ma just smile, alright ? I'm talking about ~~

BE RESORTS- MACTAN 

http://www.beresorts.com/main.html

first of all, this isn't an ad for Be Resorts.. i'm just a customer who celebrated a 1st year anniversary with my boyfriend in BE who loved the place and the service .. 

what i love about BE :o (forgive me, but this blog will be a rain, thunder and storm of pictures .. i just cant help it.. this blog is a concrete example of how i changed as a human being :p )


1)as a kid, im into black, grays and whites.. but now, COLORS ! i thought of "happy thoughts" when i entered the hotel.. the ambience is soooo relax, the combination of colors is so drastic but is a perfect fit of what i was looking for.. polka dots circling me everywhere pah ! spell C-H-I-L-L ! colors for me before were irritating, disturbing and too cute-sy.. but now, its refreshing and happy :o

3) weird stuffs :) this is one the things that hasn't changed in me.. i still like stuffs that are wired in a different and personal way.. i like everything custom-made :)

 my interpretation : a tree full of sperms

my boyf's : a tree full of skeletons

now who's crazy ? hahahah

okay fine, it;s not weird, but this shade will go on my resort once i'm as rich as paris hilton with  multi-million hotels and resorts all over the world :))

3 ) chairs. i don't know what's with me and chairs (and drinking glasses).. i want my chairs not only comfortable but classy and out of this world.. 

 this chair shines yellow lights once it gets dark.. 

 the itlog nah maalat chair.. i WANNA have this chair !!!

its soo comfy i'm gonna die !!! :))

 king james' chair.. its for the royalty.. < bow ! >

the coconut leaves chair.. and yes, it's able to support me.. 

it's pretty sturdy hahhaha

3) the water ! chlorinated and salted -- i like ! :0

 the place screams : SERENITY 

that's the beach in the morning..

the artificial white sand dint make the place less than NICE :)

 view from our room -- who wouldn't wanna stay here and wake up to this view everyday ?

haaaay !  :)))

 can't resist adding my first ever boho look !  fail ! hahahaha

asked manong lifeguard to take the pic for us.. and oh, the pool ? to my boyf's delight, that's only 4ft..

still, i din't mind.. i had fun teaching him to float.. and seeing him drink a liter of water.. hahahaha

those are the few little things that makes me happy.. as long as travel is there, maryil will never despair ! :o

no parting jumpshot this time coz the stupid me forgot all about it.. so here's my fave pic instead :)

my not-so-boho-look hahahha

"you can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine !" -- The Remedy


=== yhielle ===

Unpretty :(

"You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make up That M.A.C. can make ~~~~ "

-- unpretty by TLC

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YcgM_cFyDuA

i 'm 23 but i'm feeling like an adolescent these days who just reached puberty ! why ?

• severe breakout! yikes ! :( yes, pimple here, pimple there, almost everywhere ! my face is red and sore with these 'lil-tumor-like-gross-facial-elements that pops out wherever and whenever it wants to.. they don't even have the decency to at least pop out one at a time like they used to, they now pop out in numbers ! double yikes ! 

• baby fats :( well, this isn't really much of a problem coz it's definitely my fault.. i can't help it if i love eating.. the thing is, a girl is supposed to have "bil-bil" and chubby cheeks when we're around 13-15 years old.. coca-cola body's supposed to start at 16 and continue throughout our 20's while coke-in-can bodies after pregnancy.. in my case, i had coca cola body in puberty, "bil-bil" and chubby cheeks at 20 ! good thing i DON'T HAVE coke-in-can body yet, or else, i'll make today THE END OF THE WORLD !

• confused state.. lemme explain before your eyes roll out from your sockets .. i'm not confused with my identity.. i know i'm a 100% girl.. and d**ks are still my thing than v****as, okay ? kidding aside, i'm bored with my look.. the problem is, i'm not sure if i should wear my hair long or would short be better.. if i should have it colored or not.. long or straight.. i should've had this problem when i was 13 ! but nope, when i was 13, i've always known that wavy long hair is the way to go.. now at 23 ~~~~~~~ i have no idea and my mind is completely _________ -- blank ! 

-- i'm too young to have mid-life crisis, and i'm too old for all this drama.. so i PROMISE to set everything right.. i'll get back with you with no pimple, embracing my love handles, and with a new look ! (crossing my fingers ! ) so help me God ! :D

"you can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine !" -- The Remedy


=== yhielle ===

tweet ! :)

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"SOMETIMES IN LIFE, YOU'LL NEED TO OUTGROW PEOPLE. 

DON'T FIGHT IT OR TRY TO UNDERSTAND IT; 

EMBRACE IT. "

what it means ?

according to http://www.thefreedictionary.com/outgrowing : 

out·grow  (out-gr)

tr.v. out·grew (-gr), out·grown (-grn), out·grow·ing, out·grows

1. To grow too large for

2. To lose or discard in the course of maturation: 

3. To surpass in growth: 

but for me ? it only means 1 thing.. that in the course of time, i have to lose people.. people who used to matter, like friends.. i decide to lose them 'cause sometimes, its the ONLY rational thing to do to keep my sanity, and most especially to keep my dignity and self-respect.. simply put, there's no point in keeping non well-wishers in the pages of my life.. 

harsh and mean ? yes, i am all that.. call me anything but FAKE.. no "but's", no "what if;s".. if i don't to like you, then i don't.. and if i decide to drop you, then you're on the ground - dropped and soiled..  yey ! :)

"you can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine !" -- The Remedy


=== yhielle ===