Unpretty :(

"You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make up That M.A.C. can make ~~~~ "

-- unpretty by TLC

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YcgM_cFyDuA

i 'm 23 but i'm feeling like an adolescent these days who just reached puberty ! why ?

• severe breakout! yikes ! :( yes, pimple here, pimple there, almost everywhere ! my face is red and sore with these 'lil-tumor-like-gross-facial-elements that pops out wherever and whenever it wants to.. they don't even have the decency to at least pop out one at a time like they used to, they now pop out in numbers ! double yikes ! 

• baby fats :( well, this isn't really much of a problem coz it's definitely my fault.. i can't help it if i love eating.. the thing is, a girl is supposed to have "bil-bil" and chubby cheeks when we're around 13-15 years old.. coca-cola body's supposed to start at 16 and continue throughout our 20's while coke-in-can bodies after pregnancy.. in my case, i had coca cola body in puberty, "bil-bil" and chubby cheeks at 20 ! good thing i DON'T HAVE coke-in-can body yet, or else, i'll make today THE END OF THE WORLD !

• confused state.. lemme explain before your eyes roll out from your sockets .. i'm not confused with my identity.. i know i'm a 100% girl.. and d**ks are still my thing than v****as, okay ? kidding aside, i'm bored with my look.. the problem is, i'm not sure if i should wear my hair long or would short be better.. if i should have it colored or not.. long or straight.. i should've had this problem when i was 13 ! but nope, when i was 13, i've always known that wavy long hair is the way to go.. now at 23 ~~~~~~~ i have no idea and my mind is completely _________ -- blank ! 

-- i'm too young to have mid-life crisis, and i'm too old for all this drama.. so i PROMISE to set everything right.. i'll get back with you with no pimple, embracing my love handles, and with a new look ! (crossing my fingers ! ) so help me God ! :D

"you can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine !" -- The Remedy


=== yhielle ===

tweet ! :)

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"SOMETIMES IN LIFE, YOU'LL NEED TO OUTGROW PEOPLE. 

DON'T FIGHT IT OR TRY TO UNDERSTAND IT; 

EMBRACE IT. "

what it means ?

according to http://www.thefreedictionary.com/outgrowing : 

out·grow  (out-gr)

tr.v. out·grew (-gr), out·grown (-grn), out·grow·ing, out·grows

1. To grow too large for

2. To lose or discard in the course of maturation: 

3. To surpass in growth: 

but for me ? it only means 1 thing.. that in the course of time, i have to lose people.. people who used to matter, like friends.. i decide to lose them 'cause sometimes, its the ONLY rational thing to do to keep my sanity, and most especially to keep my dignity and self-respect.. simply put, there's no point in keeping non well-wishers in the pages of my life.. 

harsh and mean ? yes, i am all that.. call me anything but FAKE.. no "but's", no "what if;s".. if i don't to like you, then i don't.. and if i decide to drop you, then you're on the ground - dropped and soiled..  yey ! :)

"you can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine !" -- The Remedy


=== yhielle ===

the dreaded BOREDOM monster is back ! DARN !

"i'm sooo effin bored .. kill me now !" 


familiar huh ? used this statement as my fb status and tweeted this away numerous times already .. 


i seem to come across this statement a lot of times over the course of 23 years i've been gladly alive .. and now that i'm savaged with this predicament, yet again, i've thought of ways on how to maximize and still be productive on my "boring" day instead of going back to the old impulsive me and do things i know i will regret after.. 


here are the things i do (from the least likely to the most likely) when a boring day haunts me ..

5 ) 

-- i write :) i may not be the best writer there is but i do write .. i dont write as often as i breathe, that's because i need a very strong emotion to be able to get a pen and write on my trusted small yellow notebook.. since i cant carry my netbook anywhere and just blog easily, i carry this small yellow notebook wherever i go to satisfy the itch whenever my hands crave to just write anything away.. i dont normally know when and where the itch would start but what i do know, is that if i dont get to write at that time, you'd expect me to be in a very sour mood.. i'd definitely go looking for any pen and paper! see ? i'm just crazy when the need to write arises.. and if i do start writing or when i'm blogging, i cant seem to stop and just babble anything away ! or worse, since a lot of things are crossing my mind, i won't know where to start and just proceed doodling with my name simply because i have to write something ! now that i'm blogging about my insanity (sometimes), i'm starting to think as to why i'm wired like this.. and when i start to think why, i'd give reasons, and when i give reasons, i write the reasons, and this blog won't end.. hahahahahah.. so there ! now i know you understand my craziness with writing! on to number 4 ! hahhahaha :))) 

4 ) 

-- go for a very good swim :) i love swimming !! pool or beach, it doesnt matter which, so long as i get to swim .. i love the feeling of being surrounded by water.. its calming and its soothing.. it relaxes me and gets me away from the city-feel for a while.. submerging myself in the water blocks all noise in the surrounding and makes me feel alone but not lonely .. i feel so alive being in the water and i really have no idea why.. i practically grew up in the water.. when i was a kid, me and my family lived near the beach so every weekend, its a pure must to pack our stuff and head out to the beach and just have some family fun.. or when my grandparents are not feeling so well, to the beach my family goes ! the great thing about swimming, is that its known as a good exercise as well .. i get to work out without being stressed and pressured while doing what i love best! if given the choice, swimming would be number 1 in this list, but sadly, i don't live near the beach and i don't have a pool, i'd settle this to be at number 4.. but remember, everyday is a chance for a good vacation, so take it as it comes ! :) swimming + me = perfections baby ! :)) 

3 ) 

-- read a book :) yes, i know ! i know ! some of you guys might find reading still boring and unproductive .. but i love it ! i'm a self confessed bookworm and i love how a book triggers my mind to release the creativity in me .. from the books that i read, i get to travel to different places.. from the real ones to the ones outside of this world.. from renaissance ball gowns-and-petticoats-England to the "William & Kate" England that we know now.. i like how King's Cross station look and getting that giddy feeling that somewhere between platforms 3 & 4, a platform 3 1/4 MIGHT exist which routes you to a wizarding world .. when i see rabbits run, i imagine it scurrying through an ordinary rabbit hole which MAY house muffins that make us very BIG then makes us very small  after.. and hey ! most of the best known movies nowadays came from books ! message in a bottle, the last song, a walk to remember and the notebook, all by nicholas sparks.. Lord of the Rings trilogy of course from JRR Tolkien.. Harry Potter by J.K Rowling.. and who didn't love vampire-human-werewolf story of Twilight series by Stephenie Meyers ? i do hope though that whenever i read, i read in a park or in a beach somewhere.. but The Philippines don't house that much park and public beaches.. so i remain in the comforts of my room while my mind drifts to England, Spain, Portugal etc :)

2 ) 

-- watching movieSSS :) i placed "SSS" there coz i just love all kinds of movie ! and i mean ALL ! i can't say there's a bad movie ever made in the history of the entire industry coz movies are supposed to entertain us .. if you didn't like the movie, that's because the genre isn't your type but that doesn't make the movie bad.. right ? :) i watch any type of movie so there's no particular genre that i call my favorite.. but there are genres that i just NEED to watch in the theater and there are some genres that i only watch in dvds.. example, sci fi  movies with great combat scenes are my "theater-must" movie.. i like to see the combat scenes in the big picture and i like to see the main actors run for their life ! i like saving-the-universe type of movies.. transformers, super 8, star wars, the andromeda strain, matrix, chronicles of Riddick,and Blade series.. but the best sci fi movie for me ? its still ET ! hehehheh.. right now, im hyping about super heroes ! "when i grow up i wanna be a super hero!" hahahaha.. who would forget wolverine and storm, mr fantastic and invisible woman, clark kent and lois lane ? yes ! x-men, fantastic four, superman.. but my fave super hero u may ask ? its batman ! yes, he still has the same funny costume of a super hero.. a mask and he still wears his underwear outside ! but i like the fact that he doesn't have super powers, instead, he boasts his out-of-this-world gadgets just like James Bond.. oh, i love him too.. Bond, James Bond.. i love fantasy movies.. Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings.. i like animations too but only those which boasts of hype colors and are shown in imax or 3d.. "It's soooo fluffy i'm gonna die!" by Agnes of Impeccable Me ? she's my fave! i'm a scaredy-cat but i still love suspense movies.. i like the feeling that FAITH is always where we turn to when science fails to explain a certain phenomenon.. which always sends tingles to my spine :) now the rest are my "dvd-only" movies.. chic flicks and comedies :) don't boo-hoo me coz i still watch them, just not much as those action movies.. what can i say? i just happen to have a thing for men who saves the world and as a woman, i wanna be like Maggie Q in Priest, who kicks ass in her heels .. :)

1 ) 

-- happy thoughts ! :) can't get the hang of it ? well, lemme put it this way.. i love colors.. i love my things to be colorful .. i love the color yellow coz its soo sunny and charming ! so there ! when i'm bored, it stresses me out.. when i'm stressed and when things aren't going my way, my mantra is, and always will be "happy thoughts!" at times when i can't think of a happy memory, i just think of colors, balloons, polka dots and my fave lollipop .. yes ! i love lollipops.. chupa chups anyone ? hahahaha.. i'm into graffiti's now as well.. i may not know anyone who does graffiti or i may not have the talent to make one, but i'm adoring and loving the artists creativity.. i honestly think that the world be a happier place if we see clean graffiti's everywhere.. happy thoughts is clearly the cheapest, the easiest and has been the most effective way to free me of my boredom.. and where does maximizing my time and being productive comes in thinking of happy thoughts, you ask ? well, since this has been, by far, the most effective way of bringing me out of my boredom state, i get to do the things that needs to be done.. and most importantly, i get back on my feet and stay far away from that effin' boredom ! :)

AND THE RESULT ?

-- everyday is a VACATION ! yes, i got to insert my parting jumpshot ! but of course ! woooohooo! :)

credits to the pictures:

5 ) girl writing on a very large book

3 ) davis-- girl readng by a tree:

2 ) teen girl watching a movie

-- all from google pictures :)






"you can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine !" -- The Remedy


=== yhielle ===